Chidambaram, home of Shiva Nataraj

The priestly caste, called Dikshitar, of which there are 400 males, are charged with keeping the traditional patterns of worship going in this ancient and well-known temple.  It is a rare find having both Shiva and Vishnu honored in one place, and for being the only temple in India where Shiva is seen in his dancing form of Nataraj.  Interesting that most of the Murtis we see in the states are of Shiva dancing, and here there is only one temple to this form. 

How do I describe watching a dozen men carry a brass torch the size of this room to lead a procession of the gods into the temple?  What’s it feel like to be gently squeezed on all sides by the crowd of thousands, feet lifted off the ground as drums and horns sound around the brass statue, old as time, that has walked this corridor filled with crowds, twice a year in just this fashion for how many millennia?  The jewels encrusting the statue, rubies, emeralds, sapphires the size of my palm, are ancient in themselves, I am sure.  What is that statue worth? 

I can say this: my hair stood on end as the drums came closer.  Craning over the crowd, the smells of jasmine, coconut oil, burning incense and camphor, my hand on some small lady’s shoulder so I don't fall forward and another behind me with her hand on me to steady us all, like a row of fence posts.  It doesn’t really matter what one believes about the coming idol in this moment, its clear we are in the middle of something important to a lot of people.  The vibe is medieval, and it really feels like another time, and certainly another place.  These images and sensory experiences now etched in my subconscious link me to a collective consciousness of the millions over the years who have seen this same moment enacted in this same temple.

One has the opportunity here to change completely.  Change the way of seeing and of sensing the world, and therefore catch a fresh sense of Who I Am, or at least am not.  If this is happening here, and the Red Sox are playing in Boston at the same time, who is to say what is ever real for anyone in any given moment?  Just to see that this festival is going on as it has all this time, and my hair is standing on end and my eyes feel super-charged and bright in the moment just before the Nataraj towers before me, above the crowd.  Just this is enough to remind me: don’t think you know, don’t you think you ever know a beginning and an end to this existence;  don’t believe you have a handle on it or feet firmly planted. 

This is the home of dancing Shiva, where the grace of that slender foot can come down on you in any moment, creating a wheel of change which has no good or bad, no wrong or right.  The foot of Shiva’s grace, the impermanence of our lives, is not to be forgotten.  Meditation reminds us, death reminds us, worship reminds us.  If it takes a mountain of rice flour, entire fields of picked flowers, a live torch the size of a mini-van, and thousands of people craning to catch a glimpse of a million-dollar statue to keep us forgetting the nature of our existence here, well that’s a smaller price than death.  Or at least a very good trade.  

Ramana Maharishi Ashram Dec 26

Tiruvanamallai, the realization-place of sage Ramana Maharishi has changed a lot over the years since I came first in 1999.  Western travelers of a spiritual bent are all around here, and the usual businesses that pop up around them also abound.  The “India Boutique” and the row of shops adjacent are selling poofy pants, flowy skirts, and translucent cotton tops.  The “organic café” is selling fresh juices and green salads, which can be quite hard to come by (where are they growing lettuce in south india?).

Much of the hub-bub is to be found just opposite the entrance to the ashram.  Hippie types bliss out on the steps and sit along the walls of the main hall where Maharishi’s Samadhi is decorated.  Huge backpacks come in on the backs of travelers who had the foresight to book a room by writing to the ashram 6 months in advance. 

One finds oneself here among the lost, and it only follows that I look back at myself as another one of these travelers.  Who knows how long any of us have been here, what benefits we have been able to integrate from this place and all the merit that lies here?  Looking at the westerners all around, here as spiritual tourists, I find myself among so many seeking blessings from a country rich with spiritual heritage and living practice.  We Americans come from a land of consistent consumerism, here is a land of consistent aspiration.  Not to say all americans are consumers and all Indians are spiritual, but one can’t help but notice the difference between Disney World and the ashram as tourist attractions.  We all come together here to wake up to something greater, to soak in the environment began by a man who was able to release the illusion that he was separate from God, separated from the comfort and joy of truthful living.  That’s inspiring, and the energy of it carries all of us who wander here, confused, broken, or on a path.  Just the idea that this man got there inside a human form is enough to keep us all coming.  No matter what happens here, we all came because we are interested in knowing something more about the truth of things.  That is worth a lot.  We could be at Club Med desecrating beaches and abusing the staff.

Yoga for Spring: 

     

Yoga is a practical path to a peaceful way of being, a deeper understanding of Self and world, and a daily reminder of the sacred nature of existence. 

To balance the heavy, cool, dense, damp days of Boston spring weather, a yoga practice should encourage warmth and don't be afraid to make some moderate sweating.  Get some of that excess water out of the body.  Uddiyana Bandha is highly effective in cleansing a heavy stomach, as well as Agni Sara.  Energizing pranayama like Kapalabhati and Bhastrika will stoke the fire.  It's finally the time for the light qualities of Vinyasa yoga, all you vinyasa fiends out there.

Smells Like Spring Spirit

Due to the cold, damp qualities of Boston weather when it’s cold but not freezing, you might expect an increase in your earth and water elements (AKA Kapha dosha). In our part of the world, spring is no time for an over-indulgence of the two biggest Kapha aggravators: wheat and dairy. I have had a few allergy-sufferers complete a spring cleanse with me and have no allergies that year! Even a small reduction in these two food items until May/June can make a difference. Its about the awareness, remember, not the “rules.” To get you started, at the right, you will find a recipe for breakfast cereal that is perfect for cold, damp mornings, as well as a new noodle soup (say it 5 times fast) I piloted with Cara Brostrom on our recent"food and photo" day.  Recipe in the last post.

Eat good at home.
Well, I have started cranking out some new spring recipes. You should know my kitchen now is composed of a mini-fridge, and plug-in, double burner, hot plate. I am reaching new heights in minimalist cooking. Simple preparation, simple manifestation. The aware eater will notice quickly that outside food doesn't feel as good in the gut as home food. So get cookin- and keep it simple.

We Americans are really hooked on our sweet breakfasts. The Thai, however, know how to start off on the light foot:




New Noodle Soup
Boil 2 cups water and add coarsely chopped carrot, daikon radish, mustard greens, spring onion, and/or bok choy. Add 1-2 tsp fresh grated ginger, or ½-1 tsp ginger powder and a shake of pepper. Boil until al dente. Add rice noodles or Kelp noodles (Whole Foods in the asian section) for the last minute. Squeeze lime to taste, tamari or Braggs liquid aminos to taste, and a hint of agave. Eat when noodles become soft- don’t overcook them. For variety, you can add 1/3 can of light coconut milk per serving. I like to double fist it, big spoon in one hand and chopsticks in the other. Dribbling, broth flying--Yes! Don’t forget your bib.

April. Circle in the Square. Beantown USA.

IT would seem I am destined to travel and inhabit small rooms.  I am so good at it.  I find myself back in boston renting a 190 square foot studio which, interestingly, is very much like my place in Mysore- minus the rat and smelly sink.  I have traded those for the sounds of the highway. When people ask how I am doing, I hear myself say “I’d rather be in India”.  A friend recently pointed out that I didn’t have to work there.  Good point. 

Somehow I am so very skilled at creating my own routines, and don’t really need the structure of a job.  I am also very skilled at negotiating space and minimalist lifestyle, which made the task of transforming this room into an apt/office/yoga room kind of fun.  The key, I can tell you, is the lack of furniture. 

Im having a hard time stepping out of the subtle plane.  I find myself spacing out, almost on purpose, as if it’s a way of life to be half-here.  Oh, but I’m more here than ever before.  I am altered, certainly, and I have the hang ups, still.  The change may be this:  I know there’s a whole nother thing going on all the time, right here.  All I have to do is tune in to the field of it.  That rocks.  I can almost feel it in my body without even trying so hard.  It’s like a tinkling, sparkling that works its way up into my chest.  On the runway in Chennai, I closed my eyes to say good-bye to India and that was when I first felt it.  I knew it was cellular, the change.  And that its not going anywhere, and that I am carrying something of India with me, and this is special.

            When I got back to the city I realized I feel more at home over there than I do here.  I welcome this.  Except for that feeling that I am a piece in one of those wooden kid’s toys with the cut outs in the shapes of circle, square, and triangle.  You take the wooden cylinders cut into the same shape and insert in the hole.  If you try the wrong shape, or the wrong hole, you could sit there all day shoving and feel quite frustrated.  Hmm, that’s me coming home this time.  Circle in the square.

Feb 27- Things that are Grossing Me Out Right Now

My sink that doesn’t drain well, so there is always a quarter inch of wet stuff. It also doesn’t have a U-shaped drain underneath, and Im on the top floor so my little studio regularly gets the off-gas from the building drainage. Which, in India, is a lot. My first few nights, the stench actually woke me in the night. And now, like everything, Im used to it.

My consistently dirty fingernails. Black feet.

Tea-stained teeth.

Fermented foods. The kind that are fermented on purpose before eating.

Feeling full of poop.

Pimples.

The hotter it gets, the shorter gets the fuse. Something disgusting could just make me want to KICK SOME ASS. I don’t care whose! Interesting how in the states my reaction would be to flee, and here it is to fight. Is it the weather? Survival instincts?

Do I smell and I’ve become used to this as well? Everything smells like Indian food, and I’m sure that includes my armpits.

Rat turds.

Did I mention, speaking of gross, the day after writing a post where I used the Mouse-Death-Behind-Refridgerator in jest, what did I find? Huh? A live one. Rat-friend woke me in the night rustling through my TRASH. I turned on the light and saw its tail sticking out of the trash bin. Threw a metal plate over it. Rat ran, don’t know where.

3AM: After trying to sleep through the rustling, we find Kate, yoga enthusiast, standing on her metal trunk with Indian broom in hand (the kind that fall apart as you use them). Should the rat run across the floor she will be spared the embarrassing, but inevitable scream were it to cross her feet. Should this be a rat riddled with contagion, this is also best. Luckily, Kate helped Peter from Istanbul oust a rat 2 yrs ago from this very flat, and she KNOWS WHERE IT HANGS OUT. There is a bin thingy behind the fridge, in the inner workings of it. The rat waits there.

Déjà vu, I swear it’s the same rat. Beady eye staring out at me from the tray thingy. Oooh, them’s a fightin glance. I ain’t scared. I take all clothing items off the floor, scattering rat turds. I arrange the trunk to catch the rat and send it towards the open door (Peter’s idea). Trash can outside. All shoes cleared from doorway. I poke the broom at the tray with gusto and the rat scrambles!!! Where??? Shit. Like a flash of lightning, gone to its next hiding place.

3:30AM: We can still find Kate searching the crannies of the room, broom in hand. Standing on trunk. Hmm. Sweeping up turds and removing from the room by sliding them onto a piece of paper and shaking off the rooftop (the lack of dust pans here is maddening). A sprinkle of Lysol and a wet rag. Antiseptic handwash.

She gets back in the bed, sure to hear the rustling from behind the fridge. But miracle, she falls asleep and the rat (bless its beady eyes) hasn’t been back.

7:30AM Nice yoga practice.

Add THAT to your yoga vacation blog!